Will she give me an other chance?
I was with my ex girlfriend for a year. We were great together and she often told me that I was the best boyfriend she ever had. Everything was great. We made sure we always took at least one day out of the week to go out and spend the day together. A month ago, she asked me to come over and to make a long story short, she broke up with me. She said she needed to work some personal things out. She also said that I needed to work on some things myself. I guess toward the end, I would get jealous when she went out with her friends. I would usually send her a mean text every night she went out. I always regreted it the next day.
About 2 weeks after the breakup, we began talking again. She would call on her way to work and before she went to bed. It felt great. A week ago, she called and asked me if I would go on a walk with her. We talked about things we needed to improve for when we get back together and even talked about getting married one day.
Four days ago, my friends through me a birthday party and I got drunk. I sent her a text at 3 in the morning. I told her not to call me again and that I didn't trust her. I didn't mean any of it and I still don't know why I did it. For the past four days, I've texted her to try and appologize but she would not respond. Today I sent her a text asking if we could meet that evening to talk. She finally replied and said she wasn't ready to talk yet and needed time to think about things. I told her I understand and left it at that. I have felt terrible over the past 4 days for sending her that text. I hope she will let me talk and explain. She means the world to me and I have been working very hard over the past month to improve myself. I even decided to stop drinking. I guess I just slipped up that one night and it was a big one. Any oppinions or suggestions? What should I do while she thinks about things. We do work at the same place and see each other almost every day. Thanks