One night stand with an old friend! I want more, she's??
So the story goes... When I was a senior in High school I dated a 23 yr old for 3.5 years. I recently ended that relationship. Never felt better. So I'm thinking hmm, maybe ill get a Facebook and meet up with some High School friends since my ex-gf stole all my time and I had moved 40 miles north, etc.
So a girl from HS found me (shes hot as hell by the way) and is super excited that I've got a Facebook and wants to "hang out asap!!". We were decent friends in HS, never hung out after school until day before graduation. She's was a cheerleader, dancer, all that good stuff she flaunted. I did the football thing of course. We're both 21 just to add.
So on Facebook she instant msg's me and we talk for a good hour this way, and after catching up a bit she says, "so theres something ive gotta tell you. Remember the day before graduation when we hung out and went swimming, I really wanted to f@$k you so bad that day but I didnt cause you had a gf." I reply with hey I'm flattered and if I hadn't had a girlfriend then something definitely would have happened.
So a day later, we both are off work and decide to hang out. She has her own place, I sadly moved back in with my parents. So I go over and she cooks me dinner.. we talk.. and as most 21 yr olds do, drink. So we get drunk and talk about a bunch of things. We go for a walk, sit on a bench, I kiss her. I stop after a few seconds then she proceeds to kiss me back, we ended up pretty much hardcore making out and dry humping, all that good stuff =p.
So we walk back to her condo, drink a bit more. She decides to go explore this field bhind her condo she's never been to. So we go with flashlights (its around midnight), and in the field we continue our sexcapade from earlier. So finally when we get back its on, were getting wild. We have sex for a good half hour all over her place (sry if its TMI but I was buzzed to the point where I couldn't climax lol). After were done she's passes out... I ask her if she's okay, she mumbles... confused about her status I just stay by her side till she gets up and gets dressed. We smile at each other then we fall asleep.
The next morning, she's all you should make me breakfast. So I do, I make some sort of parfait. She comes into the kitchen and gasps like "omg we had sex huh??!?!" I give her a look like uhhh, you serious? Now I KNOW we weren't THAT wasted.. She was more then able to walk and climb a fence after our expedition.. So I told her you we did..
Ever since that night (~2 weeks ago) we've been chatting a lot and hanging out a lot. I found out she's a heavy pot smoker. I use to as well but I'm over it now. So I smoke with her a couple times nothing too crazy. We go to a kick back with her friends, play beer bong, she's DD so I get wasted. She takes me to her place, we fall asleep, no action. So the next day were getting lunch and she tells me she wanted to have sex REALLY bad last night, but fell asleep. I tell her well I'm upset we missed the opportunity but can gladly try again later.. we laugh about it.
And now I'm starting to develop feelings for her. And as I'm writing this I'm realizing its probably because of the sex... wow. But I've told her already how I feel and asked her if she feels the same way and she says "you definitely intrigue me but only time will tell".
So I'm in the air because its kind of lame how she's a pot head. But she's fine as hell and we still haven't had sex again yet! I can't tell whether she wants to be friends, be f@$k buddies, or let it play into something more. Since all we've done is hang out so far I think I'm going to ask her on a legit date, or is that wrong? I mean I feel like it would be the grown up and best way to try and start a relationship because that's what I want, especially if it went well. I don't think I could be f@$k buddies, because that's not the kind of person I am. And I have a subtle feeling in the back of my mind that that is all she wants. But it doesn't make sense because we still haven't had sex since the first night we met up... I feel as if every time we hang out I should make a move but I don't want to just f@$k and then it be nothing else.
So should I...
Ask her on a real date?
Continue with its current state, see if someone finally makes a move?
Distance myself and eat these feelings and move on?
Wake up and realize I'm 21 and don't get attatched to every girl I have sex with?
Sigh. I've got guy friends pressuring me to just do a lot of girls and live it up, be single and have fun. But that's not really who I am. And now that I've had sex with this girl, I feel obligated to date her but its funny because I feel she's totally the girl version of what my friends are pressuring me to do... gaaah sorry if I'm confusing I just don't know what to do!
