Is what Im doing the right thing?
Hey folks.
Im new to this so bear with me. I am 23 years old and feeling rather stupid... My girlfriend of three years broke up with me about two months ago and I am absolutely crushed. I live by myself I have my own house car career and do well for myself. I knew exactly what I was worth now I don't have a breeze. She left me and the whole thing stank. She came over after telling me we needed to talk and Im not lying when I say she was done and dusted with what she had to say and had all of her stuff packed and gone in less than 8(eight) minutes so quick that her mother who brought her up was still outside in the car when she left.It was short sharp brutal and in the end I had lost something very dear to me.Kinda like being mugged.Now here is why I feel stupid, our first year together she claimed to have kissed another guy while on holidays with her friends I said "ok leave me alone for a while please and let me see how I feel about this" I forgave her after months of calls and apologies. Year two we went abroad to Greece and at the very beginning of the holiday before the bags were unpacked she said she didn't want to be my girlfriend anymore.The remainder of the holiday involved me and her basically being inseparable mostly because she would have been by herself then a week or two after coming home she called me up while I was at my best friends 21st and like an absolute moron I ran back to her and took her back that night.Two weeks before our three year anniversary she said she was running scared because its three years and again like a moron I said go figure out what you want come back to me I will wait. Then the anniversary happened and we exchanged gifts had a nice day etc.. And she made a nice big scrap book of us and all the fun we had together which I will admit was the most amazing gift anyone had ever given me. The incident above by the way was the day after the anniversary. So after it all went down I rang her and asked her when she would be home(she left a load of her stuff behind) when we spoke I made the rookie mistake of asking if we could talk about what happened she said there was nothing to talk about, I was blown away. Three years? And you have nothing to say to me? I went to say goodbye she swore blind that we should still be friends and I agreed. Since that day it all went wrong I sent her one message saying "Just a quick text to say hi hope all is well" since then not a word back. So again I feel like a complete idiot being used abused and eventually discarded by a woman I thought I knew well and more importantly that I thought loved me. Every night I end up thinking of her in the morning I think of her well you get the idea. And I cannot seem to get past her I WANT TO GET HER BACK. So the long and short is this am I doing the right thing or should I go yell at her for being such a tyrant to make myself feel better?
23 and feeling like a complete Dumbass...