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For almost six months... tomorrow would have been our anniversary... I was in a relationship with a guy. I am 15 years old and this is my first serious relationship, my first real relationship. My old ones lasted about a week to two weeks on average and I never was in love. But this guy was real, this guy was great. He was one of those guys who was very committed to a girl and hadn't dated a lot. He is 18. Right before me, he had this on and off again girlfriend who was just... evil. He just stayed with her because he thought he'd end up alone, and having someone was better than having no one. But this girl cheated on him. The first time, he forgave her. But then she cheated a second time. He finally left her, but from what he told me, he regretted leaving her because he didn't have enough confidence to realise better be alone than with someone horrible. But then he met me, and we talked and realised we had a lot in common, and we fell for each other madly. 9 days after we met we got together. Now, we are in a long distance relationship. So we talk on IM and all. Every day almost we'd talk. I loved him madly, and he did too. If we had to go one or two days without talking, he'd come back and tell me he missed me so madly that it was unbearable. He'd cancel plans to talk to me. He was the all around perfect guy. He was this nerdy computer type. I loved him madly and still do, because we broke up exactly one week ago. But slowly, people started picking on us. His stupid friends, parents too. Told him he was a pedophile for dating a 15 year old. So, it is so unnatural. Last Friday, he came on and apologised for being late because he had been at his dad's surgery. (His dad has an early skin cancer, and they are trying to rid of it. Odd, my mother has leukemia). He said that he needed me so bad by his side during the surgery. But some classmate of his was annoying me, and I had sent her an email reply, so she emailed me telling me to stop emailing her. She told him to tell me, and we were starting to get all lovey dovey. Then I was upset and he got a little upset so then he just said, OUT OF THE BLUE, "Look babes, I am thinking we need to take a break til things calm down." THen he talked about being the laughinstock of his friends and how he's still technically a pedophile for dating me. Then I asked if he was going to just date other people, and he said "i couldn't because im a fat ugly freak and i'm already in love with someone." So I said I'd miss his kisses, which I do, so so badly, and then he said "And I'll miss yours *kisses cheek* and babes this isn't permanent, we'll be together again one day." Then he just left. Now, that was on Friday, a week ago exactly. Then on Monday night, I was talking to my friend who said he heard that my ex thought I was some fake or something, so I emailed him explaining that I wasn't. Then my ex answered my email on Tuesday. It said something like "I never doubted you and never will. You still are my dream girl and always will be, the reason I left you was merely because of age and parents issues, which nobody can help. I still love you and you are still my one." So I answered and said "Am I still your future wife, and do you still see us together" and he said "yes without a doubt we will be together again one day."
Now. I am so so hurt. I just can't believe he left me when he hung on to that girl for cheating. And he is not the kind of person to talk things out, when he is upset he just shuts off all contact and doesn't do anything. But he... loved me. We had something so wonderful, and I mean, if he really WAS in love with me, those feelings don't just go away like that, do they? And as I said, my greatest joy in life was talking to him each day. He was always there by my side. He felt like a best friend and a lover all in one. Even though we could only IM, I felt the same sensations and feelings you feel when you're with someone. Now I feel betrayed and like I can't trust anyone, and if he really loves me he will come back to me when things are more "serene."
Ah, what to do? I miss him so bad. It makes no sense that one second he was missing me madly after two days and suddenly he does this. A shock. You think he misses me?
