My mother hates me although she doesn't verbally say it. She has called me names and I have this feeling around her that I'm not wanted around her. When I'm home with her she'll lock herself into her bedroom and doesn't let me in, but when my sister comes to visit she'll let her into her room. She'll only let me in because it'll make her look bad if she doesn't. She's emotionally abusive to me, which has left me with no self esteem and no self confidence. She use to be physically abuse when I was younger, but the wounds are still there.