Should I get the anger out, or clean the slate?
All right, I've been friends with this girl for about 2 years. She was new to my school, and I hung out with her. Well sometime last year, a bunch, and by that I mean almost all of my guy friends started liking her. She's not ugly, but she's not drop dead gorgeous anyway, at least by what I see. I mean, I do understand beauty is in the eye of the beholder, but still. But she does have a flat stomach, is athletic, and is very easy going, she doesn't get mad easily or anything. So I think that's also why the guys like her. And I'll admit, I was a little jealous. Not because I wanted those guys to like me, but because before she came, we were all very close, but when she did come, they all worshipped her and forgot about me. So already there was a little resentment, but nothing major. Where I really started to get mad was when all the attention from guys started giving her a big head, and she rubbed it in my face every time she had the chance. In a bunch of passive aggressive ways too, but you could tell she wanted me to be jealous. She got extremely cocky, and I couldn't have a conversation with her without her putting in how another guy likes her, how this guy said this to her, that guy said that too her, bla bla bla. I'm not the only one who noticed this a few of our friends did too. And she just blows through these guys like crazy. I've never seen her without a boyfriend. She'll go out with one for a little bit, dump him, and there's another waiting right there, and she takes him. It's almost as if she doesn't even care who it is. And she leaves these guys suicidal sometimes, and doesn't even care! She's a tease, she takes advantage of the guys that like her, gets what she wants out of it, which is simply attention, and then moves on to the next guy without a care in the world. I've had to look at my guy friends with tears in their eyes, talking about how much they hate their lives and how they want to kill themselves since they can't be with her. I was beyond mad, and the worse thing is is that she sits there, looks and them crying and just turns her head, not caring at all. I want to go off on her so bad, I'm still her friend, because I like everything else about her, but I'm sick of her cockyness and how she wants me to envy her. But I can not get to yelling at her. Don't tell me I need to talk it out with her, because I can't anymore. It won't help. It's to the point where she walks into the room and I'm ticked. She doesn't even have to say anything. We've been drifting this past year, and we both know it's happening, but neither of us is acknowledging it. I want her to know that I'm not jealous of her, I was in the beginning but not anymore. I want her to know how mad I am, and I think the only way I can do that is by getting in her face, to get all the anger out, and to make sure she knows how I feel.
But we're going back to school next year and I was just wondering, should I clean the slate, and give her another chance and just forget about all this? Or should I keep all this until next year, and give it too her there? I can take more of her crap, but I don't want to anymore, and if I should tell her, how to I get the nerve to do it? I haven't been able to.
I know this sounds like I'm over reacting, and that all this is a big deal, but I'm just sick and tired of her thinking she's hot and better than everybody else, and trying to make me feel jealous and less of a person. And I know she wants to me to get jealous of her, you can see it in her face.
Help me! Please!
