Driving is ruining my life.
I passed my driving test just under a year ago and here in the UK, for the first 2 years of after passing we are put on a probationary period in which we only need 6 points to have our licence revoked. This could happen if, for example, you were caught speeding twice (3 points each).
I am not a dangerous or careless driver in the slightest, but I fear that if I make one genuine mistake I will somehow get 6 points and lose my license. And of course, as a new driver I do make some small mistakes as I am still inexperienced. My fear of having my license revoked is making me want to lock my car in the garage until my 2 year probationary period is up. The thing is, it took me a long time to learn to drive and I would be absolutely heartbroken if one mistake made me lose my license.
Every time I drive anywhere, all day and that night before I go to sleep I replay all of the days journeys in my head and try to pinpoint where I might have done something wrong (causing me to lose a lot of sleep). I am paranoid that there are CCTV cameras all over the roads looking out for drivers who make mistakes. Every letter I receive makes me panic as I think it's something to do with a mistake I've made when driving. On days when I've been past a speed camera, I spend the rest of the day convincing myself that I've been caught speeding even though I practically halve the limit when I know there's a camera... It's ridiculous :mad:
My mum said all I have to worry about coming through the post is a red light-jumping offence or a speeding fine. Nothing else gets caught on camera. And as I do neither of these things (even though I convince myself I do without realising!) I have nothing to worry about. Is she right?
I'm booking myself in for counselling about this anxiety which is general across many areas of my life, but I was wondering if anyone here would be kind enough to offer some reassurance specifically to driving, as that is definitely my main problem.
Many thanks, and sorry for sounding like such a nutcase :(