I have had my ups and down all my life,so many things have happened to me and my family one min on a high next very low,sounds like bipolar want to see a psychatrist but no money to pay

I'm sorry to hear that.
Any person have their own problem. But when he/she can solve it, or at least manage it, than the better life he/she get.
Just always stay with positive attitude and have will of steel to achieve something better, no matter what..
Good luck my friend