I am in love with a girl (friend) that has a boyfriend.
I met this girl in college; she was in one of my classes. She sat next to me every day. I never liked her at all, never had feelings for her. I knew from square one she had a boyfriend and that she was happy with him. One day her boyfriend called me from her phone and told me to leave her alone and to stop talking to her. I told him, we were only friends, so you have nothing to worry about. But he kept at it, and kept trying to intimidate me, I never had any intentions of liking this girl. I told him he was making a fool out of himself and he needs to stop. His g/f (My love interest) told me the next day how furious she was at him because he was having trust issues with me and her being friends and also that he took her phone. Ever since then I have been having more and more feelings for her every time we talk. There was a point when I just stopped talking to her because I felt it was a waste of time, because she could never hang out because of how jealous her boyfriend was getting, she tells him everything. She calls me and texts me all the time telling me how she misses me and that she thinks about me all the time. Well last week I went out for a friend’s birthday, an awesome celebration. I invited her; she came (Because her boyfriend was out of town). I went and picked her up so she did not have to drive and I guess while we were out her b/f found out and was upset, so she was going to take a cab home. She became extremely drunk and was dancing with me and she kept moving my hands to parts of her body and I kept taking them off every time she did, I even kept pulling her skirt down so no one could see her undies. But before she became that drunk we had a heart to heart, she told me she thinks about me all the time and wonders if she has a crush. I simply replied to her that she meant a lot to me and that she was not just "some girl" to me. Basically throughout the night she kept kissing me, even when she was not drunk, and I would kiss for a second and had to pull back. I was not trying to take advantage of her at all, she means too much to me. So basically it came down to the fact that she was too drunk to get home safely with her friend who was also drunk in a cab. I did not feel comfortable leaving her so I elected to take her home myself. Her friend and her decided they did not want to go home because of some reason and I told her I have a spare room where her and her friend can sleep, I reiterated multiple times I was not going to try anything with her, even if she wanted me too. Basically she ended up spending the night with me in my bed, we cuddled, kissed a bit, as it was extremely hard not to. She wanted to have sex and I said no, I was proud of myself, because it did not go that far, until morning. She fell asleep in my arms, and I could not sleep, I just starred at her while she did, pulling her hair back when it fell in her face, kissed her on the forehead. Things were going well, and I think while I just watched her sleep that I realized, I think I am in love. But I did not want to be that other guy, eventually after I fell asleep for a little bit I woke up with her touching me. By that time she was not drunk anymore as she slept it off. Basically a few things led to another, but yet we still did not have sex, I made sure of that. We just fooled around a little bit, it’s hard to say no to a girl can't stop thinking about. For once in my life my body is just flooded with emotion when I think of her and I actually like someone not based on their looks, even though she is beautiful. I fell in love with her personality. She ended up telling her b/f after I took her home and called me to tell me he was mad at her, and that she does not know if I and she should talk anymore. I told her that I would not take anything back that happened last night, because of what I did, I made sure she made it home safe and that is all that matters. So if our relationship is over because of that then so be it, her safety means a lot to me and it is a sacrifice I am willing to make because of how much she means to me. We are still talking. I wonder if she told her b/f wanting him to break up with her. I do not know. But I do not want to be that other guy and I do honestly feel bad because of what happened. I have morals and I know I would not want her doing anything with anyone if she was mine, even now that she is not mine I don't want her too. But what do I do? Do I wait to see if they break up? Do I wait to find out if she will stop talking to me? Or do I make the first move and just tell her how I feel, she knows how I feel but there is so much more to it than that. We were friends before hand and I think that's the reason I fell for her. What do I do, I want to be with her, but I want to make sure she’s happy the same time. She means a lot to me, and for once in my life that's not a lie, it’s the truth. Advice?
