I stay depressed for no reason it seems... I have a job,but no family really.. feel as if I am unlovable and will die alone and I am meant to be alone forever... I hate looking in a mirror.. I'm ugly as sin and I feel like nobody wants to look at me.. people tell me I'm pretty all the time but I don't see it.. I cry a lot for no reason whatsoever.. and I don't seemt o have a reason to.. I know I need help,major help.. I think about killing myself all the time.. but I'm too big of a coward to do it.. I have massive self esteem issues... can anybody help please before its too late?:(

You need to see a professional to help you with this asap.

You definitely should go get some professional help. I know that everyone hates the thought of that, but I promise, it will help so much. A psychologist can help you with your self-esteem problems and suicidal thoughts, and they can treat you if your depression is being caused by something medical.

I know I should,but I just don't have the money,and I really don't care it seems.. if I wake up I wake up

Hi, tinna!

I'm sorry about the way that you're feeling about yourself! Yes, it would be best to seek out counseling from a professional. Many places operate on a sliding fee schedule where you might wind up paying little or nothing at all.

If you would like to, the is an activity that I like to do with people on this site that can help them to feel better about themselves. If you would like to know what it is an participate in it, please let me know on this thread.

Thanks!

Sweetie, you are very depressed and you need to seek some help! Iv'e been there I to saw no light at the end of the tunnel. I had feelings of despair and suicide thoughts. Iv'e had self esteem issues all my life and it doesn't just go away. It's not normal to feel like that you need to get some help perhaps some medications. What you see in yourself right now is not how it is. Your just hurting. Please go get some help I promise you there is help for you, people do care about you and want to help you.