[F]right, well where do I start! Last October, I started dating a guy, we only went out for a month, but had already been seeing each other long term. When we broke up, it was actually meant to be a break, but we were at a party and he kissed one of my best friends, so I got drunk and upset and slept with his best mate. After that I went out with his best mate and it went really well until 2 months down the line he rang me and told me how much he loved me and needed me back in his life! So me and my boyfriend split up and I started to see this guy again, only he's always on and off with me. Like there's been times where he's told me he loves me, I'm the best thing in his life and if he ever lost me it would actually tear him apart, because he has got problems at home and he talks to me about it, we're not just an item, we're actual best friends! But we had a pregnancy scare a few weeks ago and ever since he's been really off and he kissed one of my mates again of me, ever since then I've felt completely down and cannot seem to pick myself up, I told him I never want to see him again, and he keeps ringing me and completely me about he cannot lose me and that our friendship is good, but he hasn't once said he loves me:( I don't know! I just need to know why, what have I done to make him go off me. And I don't know whether to tell him how I feel, cause I feel lost without him, he is the main thing on my mind, I can't even go out with my own friends without spending the majority of the time thinking about him, I can't sleep, I can't eat, and I'm never happy unless I'm with him and we're on good terms, I just need to know how he feels and how he would take it if I did tell him how I truly feel, someone please please shed some light on the situation!
I get so paranoid that he's situation me, because from an outsiders point of view it does seem that way, but I don't know, I just don't know, anyone whose been throughn something similar please please give me some advice!:(:confused::(