I am 15 years old. I am now being home schooled, when I went to school I got picked on so much:( and now I am so nervous I can't even leave the house. Picked on about my weight and being ugly all kinds of names! I am scared to leave the house I fell I'm dying or panicking like I am about to pass out! I am scared of death and dying 24/7, I don't think about hurting myself I'm scared of dying, I am all alone and when I get around so many people I get nervous sweat fell I am dying! I am even to scared to go to the doctor! What do I do I really don't want on pills... Am I going crazy? I never thought I would end up like this!:( I am really scared about all this! Its ruining my life I can't leave my house!

You need professional help to get over this. Your parents should help you find professional care.

Home school is not an escape from the world, and proper home school parents send their kids to a lot of outside activities, sport programs, music programs, martial arts. You would be going on field trips all the time to learn the arts, history and more.

And pills, sorry it is not about what you want, it is about getting better, if they will help temporary then you do what it takes to start thinking clearer