Dreaming Every Night About Ex, Ruining My Relationship
Almost every night I have been having dreams about an ex-boyfriend of mine. I met him when I was 12 and dated him only in middle school and the beginning of high school. He was also my next door neighbor. I moved away my junior year of high school and I am 20 now and almost a junior in college. I haven't seen this guy in years, so I have no idea why I am having these constant dreams. They are always different, we are either just friends, or he is trying to get me back, or for some reason I am looking for him. The problem is, I am engaged to a wonderful guy. However, these dreams have begun to get to me and I find myself looking for him wherever I go. I don't have feelings for him. These dreams happened when I was with my last boyfriend, and after we broke up, I gave in and seen the ex from my dreams. He was disappointing and not who I remembered. After that the dreams went away for about a year. Now they are bak for some reason. Why do I find myself longing for this guy, when I know that if I really ran into him again, I would see he is no longer the same? I feel so guilty! I find myself growing distant from my fiancé. I can't tell him this because he wouldn't understand and be hurt. I think that maybe I miss the friendship I had with my ex? He was my neighbor for all those years after all. I don't know what's going on. Help!