I'm scared of knowing the truth about my health. I have heard that there is power in knowing, but sometimes the truth hurts. I have had three miscarriages. I want children so bad, I sometimes wonder if I feel this way because of the miscarriages. I have been married for eleven years. My husband comes from a large family and he is the only one that does not have any kids. He claims that it don't bother him but I know deep inside it do.

I've been diagnose with diabetes type two, hypo tyroids and occasionally my blood pressure runs high. These are a lot of things going against me. So I am afraid to even inquire about having a baby. I don't have a regular cycle so I know I'm not ovulating.

I have had the joy of raising children, but no matter how many children I surround myself with I still have to desire for my own. Am I being selfish? What should I do?:(:(:confused::mad:

Speak to your doctor... yes, you have some health issues, but they do not necessarily prevent you from getting pregnant (which shows from becoming pregnant before) or keep you from sustaining a pregnancy.
Was there any determination as to why you had the previous miscarriages?
I can give you the example of my stepdaughter... she experienced losing a baby at 27 weeks and then 2 miscarriages... she went on to have 3 children. It was determined that she had a blood clotting issue and that was carefully monitored during her last pregnancy (it was not found until that time). Many women will have concerns that may play a role, but often times there are medical interventions that can help a couple achieve a healthy pregnancy.
Your doctor will discuss your history, and help you determine what will be the best course of action for you and your husband.

It can be scary to worry about the "what ifs"... but then, if you don't know, you can't do anything about it and you will be left wondering... and then you will also have the "should haves" and "could haves" to think about.