I don't know , my friends always pick on me and I don't know if there kidding with me or not, but when I ask them they say they are, but sometimes I hear them talk about me behind my back, I'm in 12th grade, for some reason ever since way back in the day when I was in 6th grade I started to get picked on by my friends, but for some reason if someone says something about me, I will still go back and do something nice for them, thts just the kind of person I'm and I hate the person I'm, plus this one girl who hangs with my best friend always talks about me, sometimes I just wantto cry, but I don't, she always tells me stuff, but I can never say anything back, because of the kind of person I'm, I feel so alone, its like evryime I think I have someone that will understand me, and be there for me, they just talk about me behind my back, I hate my life, sometimes, I sit in my room at night with a knife in my hand wondering should I end it all, but I think about my people and how they will, feel so I don't do it, sometimes I cut myself but I can't help it, I just hate how nice I can be to people who hurt, me so much. What should I do?

Talk to your school counselor and your parents and get professional help

That is a sign of depression. I am going through the same thing. I know how it is. You feel like everybody is against you. Nothing that antidepressents won't help. Just talk to a phsyciatrist about how you feel. There is always someone there willing to help. Your friends don't sound like friends either. Friends are people that will be there for you through anything. If those people are making you feel like that they are not your friends.

Hi, UnLoved!

Yes, speaking with your counselor at school and possibly also seeing a professional counselor outside of school would be a good idea.

Have you spoken with your parents about the way that you've been feeling and thinking?

If you would like, I have an activity that I like to do with people on this site that can help them to accomplish something and feel better about themselves. If you might be interested in finding out what it is and also participating in it with me, please let me know by posting on this thread.

Thanks!

I think you should write. There is poetry in your soul.

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I agree! And, I'm sure that you know that that's what I'm leading up to here! ;)

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I know and understand how you are feeling and trust me when I say they are not worth your life.

I don't want to sound like another monotonous un-understanding adult but if you do continue to have destructive thoughts you do need to see a counselor about it.

You are in the 12th grade and almost up and out into the real world. Now is the time to really be thinking about your future because in a very short time you will be onto a totally different chapter of your life. You will be free to let your false friends go and discover yourself as a person.

What plans do you have? Are you going to college?

READ THIS IF YOU HAVE ANSWERED THIS QUESTION------Everybody who answered this question thank you, but I'm not in the 12th grade, I'm in the 9th grade ,while I was typing this I had left my computer on and my cousin came and changed my grade that I had from 9th to 12th, she was probably during it as a joke, but I'm so sorry for the incovenience, but everything else besides the grade level is true, and I want to thank you all again for the wonderful answers, and I want to tell you that I can't talk to the counselor at my school because she is kind of messy, if you tell her something she will tell it to the other teachers and practically the whole school.

Don T give up don't let people manupulate you try to be srong and have confidence in yourself
You have a pure mind and beautifeaul character if you don't find around people sympathise with you there millions of people can still love you
Why not be franc with your classmates and say your opinions if never you defense yourself all the time they will take a chance to build on you and profit of your weaknes kick the ball and don' care about it just look them and laugh
Well talk to your counsellor and first tell her what you are afraid of what you really want not to spread it
Talk to your parents make some hobbies soprt and any activities and make other friends
Break the barrier and move on
Good luck

Hi again, UnLoved!

Are you interested in my offer that I presented to you in post #4?

Thanks!

First of all, let me tell you that you are not alone!!

Second, DO NOT consider ending it all because think how much you have to look forward to. You have your whole life ahead of you... do you really want to give that up for some stupid high school bullies?

Third, I assure you, life will get much, much better. Everyone has trouble fitting in at some point. For me, I was made fun of in middle school because I had really long hair. In high school, I was the "goody two shoes." I'm not trying to sound conceited, but now I'm 25, and I'm pretty popular (not in the high school sense), but I mean people look up to me. I've had my fair share of boyfriends, and I have a lot of friends. That was NOT the case when I was in middle and high school.

Don't worry, hun, life will get much better... you just haven't come into your own yet. A counselor would be a great help to your problems!

Hi again, UnLoved!

Are you interested in my offer that I proposed to you earlier on this thread?

Thanks!

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Hi again, UnLoved!

Are you interested in my offer that I proposed to you earlier on this thread?

Thanks!

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Please talk to him UnLoved...
Clough has some great suggestions/activities for people to do that really help them :)

Please call 1-800-273-talk (National suicide hotline) or the teen line 1-800-999-999 whenever you want talk and/or is considering suicide.

I know high school can be a scary a place and the kids can be cruel but believe me you can raise above it all.

In school I got tease because I was black, flat chested, had a big butt, my nose was too big, etc etc. I used to not want to go to school and cry at night because I couldn't understand why they were so mad to me while I did nothing bad to them.

I learnt through my mom that some kids loves to start trouble and love to turn another person life upside because they are crappy inside. Misery loves company and some people loves to make another person life miserable but you have to gather all the strength and courage to raise above it all.

These so called friends of yours aren't a friend at all because friends don't do what their doing to friends. Leave them alone and when they said something bad to you smile. This will piss them off more than anymore because now they're going be like "why is she smiling when we bluntly said something mean?" Soon they are going see their words aren't affecting you and move on to their next victim.

In life, even your adulthood, your going see that no matter what people will find something to say about you. That's is life and it what people do. You can't please everyone only yourself. People going always talk but it is when their not talking is when you should be worry.

Talk to your parent about this because my mom was my rock through the teasing but don't end your life over this because you have a lot of life to live.