I feel so alone, about to end it all!
I don't know , my friends always pick on me and I don't know if there kidding with me or not, but when I ask them they say they are, but sometimes I hear them talk about me behind my back, I'm in 12th grade, for some reason ever since way back in the day when I was in 6th grade I started to get picked on by my friends, but for some reason if someone says something about me, I will still go back and do something nice for them, thts just the kind of person I'm and I hate the person I'm, plus this one girl who hangs with my best friend always talks about me, sometimes I just wantto cry, but I don't, she always tells me stuff, but I can never say anything back, because of the kind of person I'm, I feel so alone, its like evryime I think I have someone that will understand me, and be there for me, they just talk about me behind my back, I hate my life, sometimes, I sit in my room at night with a knife in my hand wondering should I end it all, but I think about my people and how they will, feel so I don't do it, sometimes I cut myself but I can't help it, I just hate how nice I can be to people who hurt, me so much. What should I do?