I was just wondering why I hate myself and everyone hates me. People always want to be mean and I don't know if I can take much more of it, I don't want to kill myself, but at least 1 every 2 months it crosses my mind. My boyfriend says he loves me, and I believe it but then I don't know if he does, because I do not trust people. He accuses me of cheating on a weekly basis, but I have never even kisses anyone else. I am so streesd out. I support him, buy everything for him and show him lots of love, but he just puts me down and makes me hate my life. I love him and want to make it work, but I don't know how. It just seems like he is really selfish and hates me. He tells me everyday he loves me and is great with my daughter, we don't argue a lot. Help me?

You say you support your boyfriend, does he work? Why does he accuse you of cheating?

You need professional help. It is obvious you are suffering from depression. I can't really give you a diagnosis but, if you were not so depressed you probably would not feel like you are hated by everyone including yourself. You need counseling to help you stop yourself destructive behaviors and help you with yourself esteem. I'd say kick the boyfriend to the curb, but I'm pretty sure you'd say that isn't an option- though as far as I can see it is necessary and its going to happen sooner or later anyway. He is a downer and you've already got problems.

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Originally Posted by sabrewolfe

You say you support your boyfriend, does he work? Why does he accuse you of cheating?

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No he does not work, I pay for everything, I pay for all the bills, rent, clothes food etc. He accuses me of cheating becase he is so ultra paranoid, don't know why? But I have never done anything to make him feel insecure. All I tried to do is to make him happy. He does do a lot to help out with my little 2 year old daughter, she adores him so much, and we have a fantastic sex life and have got a lot of love between us. I think I am just, I don't really know what I think.