Need some Reinforcements.
So basically I had been dating this girl for 8 months or so. Everything was OK. We had been having little tiffs but nothing harmful. Everything was normal the night before. But one day a Wednesday I wake up to an IM. Basically saying blah blah we deserver to be with people that do the things we like. I love you and want to be friends. This isn't my first time around the block.
So my only response is COWARD. She basically says crap trying to justify the means to which she broke up with me. Now I know I shouldn't even consider wanting to be with a person that disrespects me with an IM. That's just so low. And if she doesn't have the balls to tell me to my face then I loose all respect for them.
So after this I go NC. I go up to my sisters and avoid all computers phones etc. I know what I have to do. I just keep telling myself. She broke up with an IM she's not worth anything.
So things are going so-so. I come home and put some pics up on myspace of my nephew. He's so cute. A day later she comments on one of them "I know i'm the last person you want to hear from but he's so cute"
Then she does some of the bullitens and of course for some stupid reason I look. And find out no more than 10 days after our breakup she's making out with some guy. It went in me like a huge sword. I just couldn't believe it. I thought so much better of her. I really thought that she would respect herself me and what we had and take the time to heal.
I know what I should do. I should just delete her myspace and get on with my life. But it hurts. I so much want to I'm her and tell her to leave me alone. That I deserver better than to be treated like an empty shell behind a computer. To not contact me because she doesn't deserve to have me in her life.
But I find myself on the verge of just spilling every pent up hurt and showing her the disrespect she showed me.
So come on people help me out. Give some advice. Help me build up my resolve to get through this.