I suffered from sexual abuse from my grandfather for many years. I was dealing with it and then I saw him face to face and now the flashbacks have returned and I'm back to living in fear. I just want to forget it ever happen because since I've told I've been suffering from PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder), mood disorders, anxiety attacks and some slight depression. I just want to forget it all so this stuff will just go away so any advice on how to do that?

It is impossible to just forget about the trama you have been through.

You do have to learn to function and feel healthy again.

Are you currently or previously been in therapy? You stated that you were doing well until the face to face, how long ago was that? Did you ever have the opportunity to face your abuser in court?

No we never had court it was investigated and just pushed under the rug like it didn't matter at all. Yes I went to theraphy for 3 years and it just made it worse so I recently just quit going. I saw him about a month ago I think.

Why do you feel that therapy made it worse when you were starting to recover until the face to face?

You are now back to a position where the wound is fresh again. Would you consider going back to therapy?

By seeing him face to face you will relive the nightmare all over again.
You should never be put in a position where you have to see him again!

Can you explain to us how therapy made it worse?

I understand that therapy is painful because we often have to relive a bad experience to be able to free our self from it,but quitting does not seem to be the answer either.

May I ask how old you are and why you were put in a position of seeing this man again?

OK I AM 17. I will be 18 on the first of September. I would not consider going back to theraphy because it was that it was hard even though it was it was that I had a crappy therapist. She put me down and made me feel like the way I was feeling was stupid or wrong. And when I found a good therapist mom made me quit seeing her because she didn't like her. Ummm I was in that position because I went to visit my mom and he just showed up at her house unannounced. I would quit going to mom's just to be sure that I wouldn't run into him but then that means I wouldn't be able to see my younger brothers. It is just a complicated situation.

Would writing a letter explaining the pain he caused you help (basically lash out at him in the letter)... even if you never send it to him? Or do you think that would make it worse?

I have written numerous letters that I never send. It would help until I happen to find the letter crammed somewhere and I would just get so angry and then I would isolate myself...