Disturbing sex dream, what could it mean?
I am a 22 year old male, and I had a VERY disturbing sex dream last night. I don't even know if I could technically call it a "sex" dream because there was no penetration involved and I did not ejaculate or really feel much except extreme arousal, but that does nothing to change the fact that it was extremely unsettling. I was chasing a group of very attractive, scantily clad women around what seemed to be a mansion of some kind. We all came into a room that was a dead end and the girls all started having sex with each other. You're probably wondering"how on earth can this be a bad dream!?"well I'll tell you. I was quite turned on at this point and I couldn't believe my luck that this was happening in front of me. I was even more excited when they allowed me to join in. Then to my complete shock ,I discovered that they all had male genitals, and large ones at that! How could this be? I thought. They have female voices, they look like the hottest women you could dream of, and they have large breasts! Then to my utter horror I found that I was even more turned on! I was NOT turned on by the prospect of having them in my mouth or rear end, but I WAS still aroused for some reason, I even reached up one of their skirts and began to fondle them(ugh), and by the end of the dream I had actually jerked a few of the "women" off to put it crudely.
And now, some stuff about me.I have never considered myself to be gay or even bisexual, I only watch transsexual(by which I mean they look just like women and have breast implants , but still have a penis) porn sometimes and only when there are no "true" males involved. In fact if I look at their face and can even slightly see male features than I am turned off almost immediately.
I also really enjoy lesbian porn. I actually think it may be possible that my obsession with lesbian porn led me to get curious about transsexuals. Just to have something new and odd to look at. I can't get turned on by regular boy/girl stuff because the fact that there is a guy grunting in the background really ruins it. It was almost like I was desensetized to seeing women naked(I watched girl/girl porn almost daily since around age 18)it still aroused me very much(and does still to this day), but I was getting more and more picky about what kind of women I liked and what kind of acts I liked. Some times I would see a naked women and think"been there seen that." when I was 21 I accidentally stumbled on a film of a transsexual having sex with a woman, and I had a morbid curiosity about it, and found that under the correct circumstances, a woman with a penis turned me on.however, in real life I'm pretty sure I have no desire to have any sort of relationship with someone like that, I have never even been slightly attracted to a man and there have even been a few women in particular who I have had very serious feelings for
I want to know if it is possible to become desensetized to certain types porn(much like violence)
I also want to know why I had a dream like this, because until I can make some sense of it, it will just continue to bug me.