I slept with my ex girlfriend.
All right here is the simple explanation. I met this girl at a college. We had our assessment test together. Went out to lunch after the test. And then Dated for 2 years. And it was amazing. All aspects of the relationship were good. I ended up quitting my job and I had applied at like 30 different places. I couldn't find a job and I got depressed and it got to her. So she broke up with me. Since then I have been doing quite amazing for myself. I quit smoking. I got a well paying job. I was dating a new girl. I decided what I wanted to go to school for. Ya know, I'm doing good for myself. So its been 2 months. She started dating this new guy right after breaking up with me. This guy has no car, no job, not evenin a high school diploma or a GED or anything. So Monday of this week I was on a date. She calls me. I don't answer. She leaves me a voice mail saying she should have gave me another chance and she feels really bad and everything like that. So I decided to call her back. She told me some news that didn't have me quite happy. She was sexually assaulted while her new BF was laying next to her and he wouldn't even wake it... yea that's messed up. So she called me Monday I called back. I went and stayed at her house. And we talked all night. And cuddled it was honestly like old times. So we have been talking a lot. All day everyday for the most part these past few days. We went up to this bar by my house grabbed some drinks the other night. Talked for a few hours. I had gotten a little buzzed. We ended up kissing quite a lot. But she is still with this other guy. All right so. She works at a restaurant. I went up there last night to eat. And I figure well her birthday was a few weeks ago. And what she didn't know was in fact I had gotten her a beautiful diamond bracelet for her birthday prior to us breaking up. Was just waiting to give it to her. So I gave it to her, even though she broke up with me. I probably should have waited to give it to her. But I thought along the lines as there is a reason all of this is happening. If this is the last time I see her well its her bracelet anyway. But what happened next was mind blowing. After I ate I went and sat at the bar in the restaurant. The bartender happened to me an old friend of mine. So sat up there for an hour had a few drinks cause well. All this has been stressing me out. Usually I'm not much of a drinker lol. But she is like well you want to hang out. You can sober up and drive home or you can stay the night and leave in the morning. So well she got off work and then we went and grabbed a bite to eat. I wasn't very hungry we split a full rack of bbq ribs and we each had a shot and a margarita. So we went back to her house. I honestly was coherent but ill admit I was drunk. I looked her in the eyes and I saw it was mutual so I kissed her. And that turned into some very passionate sex. It was like the day I got home from the Navy. So pretty much what I'm asking. Does this girl still have feeling for me? We were madly in love. I just got off track. I can tell by the way she looks at me she still cares. Ill catch her when she is talking to me, she still calls me baby and honey and sweetheart. But honestly should I sit around and wait for her. I mean I have dated other girls in the past 2 months but I truly loved this girl. I mean she has never cheated on anybody in her life. She was the best girlfriend any guy could want. She was always faithful to me. But she cheated on her new BF with me. I do kind of feel bad. But she contacted me. I didn't call her for 2 months. When we broke up I tried to tell her it was a mistake on her part. Her leaving me was a mistake. And she admitted it was. She said she wish she would have gave me another chance... another chance for what? Get a job? She left me for all the wrong reasons. People make mistakes, I quit my job at the wrong time. Ill admit it. So I'm asking. We dated for 2 years. She broke up with me for all wrong reasons. She contacted me. Us having sex was a mutual thing. I still love her. I still look at her the same. She is the most beautiful girl in my world. So I'm asking. Does she still have feelings for me. She told her best friend her new BF is a fling and she wants to break up with him. But she is going on vacation with him and his family in 4 days. She is torn between 2 things right now. What the hell should I do? Does she still care? Does she want me back?