This is really long and I am just venting, I would love advice so I'm sorry if I start boring you...
Ok so lately I have a very low tolerance for people. I am not sure what it is but I am much happier by myself when I don't need to talk to anyone. This is really not normal for me, I have never been a very outgoing person but I have always been social and able to talk and relate to people easily (or act like I can). I notice it more with my family than anyone else most likely it is because it is harder to hide my moods from my family. Out in public there are standards that society expects you to meet and I am a really good fake and so 9 out of 10 times no one knows when something is wrong with me. The reason I do that is because most of the time I don't know what is wrong with me. Anyway back to the point... so when I am at home it is easy enough to go into my room and listen to music, read, you know distract myself. When I am at my mom's her and my brother are usually to caught up in their daily screaming matches to bother me (that works for me). But every Wednesday my grandmother comes up to help out and it probably sounds horrible but I am ready to swallow a bottle of aspirin by the time she leaves. I love my grandmother but for some reason when ever someone tries to press conversation on top of me like her I CAN NOT STAND IT! Now when I am at my dad's house it seems easier to hide my moods but that is because my dad has always been very good at reading my moods and so just like in public I have become good at hiding it from him also, but it takes so much out of me and I never know when I am going to snap so I usually distract myself with music, a good book, or sleep. Im not sure what kind of help I am looking for so I will take any advice you have to give me. Thanks :rolleyes: