Divorce before first immigration appointment for conditional green card
I met Jenna in 2006, and in January 2007 we moved in together. At the time I was under F1 status (I was a graduate student). We got married in May 2008 and I finished school in August 2008 with absolutely no luck to get a job in this horrendous recession (so far I have applied to approx. 7000 jobs and still nothing). We were forced to move with her parents and applied for my green card in December. In January she was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder) and things started getting extremely crazy with her.
She secretly started cheating on me with someone she met in January and one day in February she woke up and told me I had to go back to my country. I asked for the reason and she confessed that she was cheating on me. After this she devastated me, that day I felt like my soul had left my body, but it was only the beginning of the revelation of how nasty she can be, she completely transformed herself. Regardless of me asking her to stop hurting me and think about how we could get over the cheating problem, she started doing it in an even more sadistic way, making sure that I knew that she was not coming back home at night because she was going to sleep with another. She even sent me text messages late at night saying that she would not come back home because she was staying at her lover's. My anxiety levels are at the top right now, and at this point stress is making me sick. I have tried everything to try to get her back, but I guess her mental disorder has somehow made her hate me now.
But right now I am very scared, especially about my immigration process, I don't know what to do. If I file for divorce I would become eligible for deportation as my status has not been changed yet (I haven't even got a temporary working permit yet which has made things worse financially), and I still need to sell my car which I owe to the bank, and it's not easy in the current economy crisis. I don't want to leave the divorce on her hands because now I am afraid of her and can't trust her so if I do it I have to be on top of it. I really don't know how I can release myself from this nightmare she has given me. She's now determined to force me to leave the U.S. and destroy my life in these conditions, without any remorse.
Please HELP ME!!