Reoccuring cervical dysplasia, what does this mean? What's going to happen to me?
When I was 16 years old I had an abnormal pap smear and my doctor sent me to a specialist to look at my cervix. I had a biopsy done and I was told that I had cervical dysplasia. They did cryotherapy treatment in September 2006 and I continued going back every 6 months for two years. On what was supposed to be my very last visit in August 2008, I was told that my test results came back showing some abnormal cells again. I went back in February 2009, which was 6 months later, and had another test. My doctor called me again today and told me "you're not perfect yet so you can't leave until you're perfect". I don't really understand what's wrong with me. Since I was 16 no one has ever really explained what's wrong with me, I had to find out most of what I know from the internet. I tried talking to my doctor about it but I was crying too much to really comprehend what he was saying. From what I remember I asked him if something was wrong, and he said that sometimes it takes awhile for it to heal(I don't know what he means I just remember him saying that), or it could be that the virus isn't gone yet and what I had before is returning. I think that it's returning because I had treatment three years ago and I was fine until August 2008.
What does he mean by "virus"? I don't even know what caused me to have this in the first place, no one has ever told me. I read that HPV can cause it but I don't know what caused this to happen to me. And if it is returning, what's going to happen to me? I wanted to ask my doctor but I was too upset. I wanted to know what happens if when I go back in 6 months the cells are still showing up abnormal? Will they do another cryotherapy treatment or will they do something else? I don't understand what's going on with me :( No one has ever really explained it to me. What virus is he talking about? And is it possible that this virus will never go away and I'll always have this problem for the rest of my life? Can someone please try and explain this to me I'm so scared now :( I tried calling him back but he's gone for the day and I have the worst anxiety now :( Will it ever go away?