okay well I'm 16 and just had a miscarriage.
I had no symptoms of being pregnaut the 1st month I was.. it was just not clear to me
I'm an athlete and I did my usual routine I play soccer at my school and outside too.
on Friday I was hit really badly with the soccer ball I didn't pay attention I just felt dizzy for the moment and my stomach started hurting also I had been craving lots of sugary things and things I never did before I had many opportunities to go to the clinic but I didn't think I was I mean we used protection so why would I be... just curuiosity I had I bought a pregnancy test and it was blurry but then again I got the cheapest one I could find so I gave up on it...
by Saturday I started spoting I thought my period coming so I must not be pregnaut wouldn't you think the same? But then by Monday and Tuesday I got scared my period wasn't coming like it normally was =[
it had blood clots in it and it was really a lot of blood irregular too. I felt sick for the week that just past and I still went to school because my mom said either go to school or don't come back.. so I had no choice but I did & got support off my friends 2girls that I've known for the longest and were my soccer mates took me to the clinic to see what had happen to me I urinated in a cup and my results were positive but sadly I was taken to a room I was so scared and they explain to me that I had miscarried at 7-8 weeks I won't get into detail but I cried after they told me and showed me how this was so... the baby was fine.. barely surviving but the ball hiting me caused the thread that my baby was holding on to for life to die =.[ I was hit so hard and stressed over my high school exit exam my mother being so hard on me and being on the team I didn't know what to do they say stress is bad even to be worrying.. and I lost my baby I just can't seem to get over it.. I'm just so emotional this past week has been hell for me and my friends I'm not sure for him he doesn't care for me as he use too ut maybe he does after this I don't know?? I'm not sure how he feels he huged me tight on Friday and I just went all emotional why are my emotions getting the best of me.. I'm so depressed I feel like this is all my fault so does he but I'm not sure what he feels he won't open up.. or talk about it... he just said he got sared when I told him Tuesday I might be pregnaut yesturday he said he felt like after seeing me so pale so depressed crying while he was holding me.. I loved him very much.. and he'll aways be the only guy I ever love you only fall in love once but that love stays their while another takes the place of that person..
I just don't know if I could get over this we both feel responsible =.[ and we did use protection we just don't understand what happen he had it in his pocket but we didn't check if it riped the doctor said that's what might have happened but I'm not sure any more I'm just really emotional hurting still pysically and emotionally.. I haven't seen a doctor yet since Wednesday I rather let it come out on its own then have the dnc done my family againt abortion and that's what is basically is a vacium that will suck it up clean Sunday it should be coming out but I'm scared. I don't know what to think? What to do.. how long will this take me to get over I lost the baby of the guy I truly loved he asked if I were too keep it if it was alive of course I would no matter if he was with me or not! I would have it with or with out his support.. every one knows me right now crying and in pain mid.. cramoing and just emotional but no one really knows how he feels and I'd like to know how would some of you fathers that just went through a miscarriage feel do u feel you should support her I feel like he tries to make me think he supporting me and conforting me but it's just to make me think he cares he told me he had no feeling for me last month after having sex but this happened and I'm not sure what to think he just feels y I guess:eek:
