Broke up with my girlfriend and want her back
OK this story will be nothing new to this site I'm sure but bare with me. I was with this girl for about 10 months. A friend hooked me up with her after my pervious relationship of 3 yrs ended. We hardly ever fought at all but over the course of our 10 month relationship I broke up with her 3 times. 1st time I broke up with her was because she smoked weed and I didn't want her to be like her mom. Her mom is in her late 40's, renting a house, making $20.00+ a hr and can't pay her bills because she is so deep in drugs. I know I approached that situation wrong but I wanted her to know I was serious. The 2nd time she said I broke up with her but I never actually said it was when me her and a group of my friends were hanging out and a guy called her, they talked and when she got off the phone she told him shed loved him. That guy wasn't family of any sort. I said who was that and she said nobody. I got mad and left because I thought she was hiding something. The 3rd and most recent was about a month ago. I work at rite aid about 38 hours a week and go to school about 15 hours a week. Not counting home so I'm kind of busy to say the least. Anyway with all that work and school I was getting stressed and depressed and I hit a pretty bad low but I never showed my feelings around anyone. Me and 3 of my buddies left a bar at 4 am one morning and I called her after I dropped them off. I talked to her for a bit and got off the phone. I sent her a text saying that she annoyed me and a bunch of stuff I didn't really mean I just didn't want to admit to her that I was depressed and I thought she deserved somebody better that could handle stress unlike me. Had I told her that she woulndt have allowed the break up. OK that the story behind this. About 3 weeks after I broke up with her I began to miss her and I realized what I had done. I know 10 months isn't that long but I connected with her on a deep level. I told her I wanted her back and she said I wasn't trying so I started trying and then said that she didn't want to be with anyone because she had forgot who she was as a person a long time ago and she needed to figure out who she was so she could be happy with herself. She said she can't be happy with anybody until she's happy with herself. I asked her if after she found herself if there would be a chance for us and she said she doesn't know because she can't tell the future and she doesn't know how she will feel about me then. I don't know what to do I not want to loose this girl. I'm sorry this is so long. Any advice?
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