I lost my boyfriend of a year, the 4th of this month, in January he passed away. I fell in love with him, and we found out I was pregnant, 2 months before with all the stress of losing atoa, I lost our child. I feel really guilty and I miss him so much, I think of suicide all the time, but I feel like its not worth it, I just can't cope, I'm dying inside a little more everyday. He is the love of my life, and I'm scared. What to do?