I was with my ex for 4 years and have a 3 year old daughter with her,it was good to begin with then she started going off sex I later found out she was working as a prostitute. I loved her that much I stayed with herin the end she had me begging for sex and just laughed at me with her friends, she even had sex with my cousin for 40 pound. I ended up having a nervous breakdown and left the town broken, I still have nightmares about her laughing at me and have tried to kill myself 3 times, I'm filled with anger and hate and pray every night that she will die, its been 12 months and I still don't see no way out, I don't sleep and constantly cry I just can't get over it and wish 4 some kind ov revenge I still text her 10 times a day telling her I hate her but can't stop! I don't know what else to do please help!