Originally Posted by valinors_sorrow
If you are feeling suicidal, please please talk to someone immediately-- a school counselor, a suicide hotline or your doctor. There is an amazing amount of help in the world available from people who care and you could feel completely differently after recieving this help.
If on the outside chance the suicide statement is just a figure of speech meant to emphasize, please consider rewording your concerns so that we can understand better what is wrong and how to help. It was difficult for me to tell from your post and I care about you getting good help Snowyhill.