I am seeing bad repetition in my relationships
I have been seeing this girl for almost 5 months. I am getting to a point now that I have seen myself get to in almost all of my past relationships. I don't know if this is just the "spark" dying off that makes me like this or what. Basically I notice that the first couple of months are awesome... we both have that fire, the infatuation, etc... you know, how every relationship starts. Then, of course, after a few months, that dies down a little, which is normal I guess. My problem is that once I notice that this is happening, I start to actually get depressed. I notice myself not being able to have a normal phone conversation with her (meaning I'm quiet a lot of the time), and I start to worry that the relationship is going to end soon. Well, it does end soon, and I'm guessing because I turn in to a different person. But, around my friends and family, I'm fine. Just around her, all I do is worry about EVERYTHING I say and do around her, and in turn, I get depressed it seems. I also get quiet when I'm around her. I am 30 years old and have dated quite a bit. I'm so worried that this is how it always is going to be. Right now, I'm contemplating calling her and asking if she is getting annoyed with me or anything... but I know I shouldn't do that..
Does anyone have any suggestions, other than seeing a theropist about this? I am really in to this girl.. and I know if it ever ends, there are other fish in the sea, etc. But, I am worried that I am always going to feel this way a couple of months in to every relationship I get in to. Thanks in advance for any advice. :(