Lost my dad,grandfather and boyfriend all w/in month.
On July 19th 2008 I lost my father(52) suddenly to a heart attack. I was at work and was not able to help. I am left with the lingering phone call from my brother yelling at me through the phone to get home dads not breathing. No one knew what was happening and I am feeling guilty for the fact that I CHOSE to work that day when I didn't have to. I would've been home to help him and I wasn't. I have blocked out so many events of that day and so many memories of him, Im scared that one day I won't remember him at all. Two weeks later my grandfather passed and he was like my second father. Three days after his passing, my boyfriend of 6yrs broke up with me and left.
I am trying to understand and cope with why all the men in my life are gone. I still have my twin brothers but everything around me is sadness and I feel like nothing will get better. Please, I need some advice.