Despite having a wonderful family& people around me eveyday that loves me I am deeply depressed.I have a three yr old son with autism.almost everyday canbe a constant struggle for him (and I).I try to help him the best I can but its not good enough.I feel like I am a horrible mother,daughter,wife,eveything.im not the same happy outgoing,talkative woman I once was.I hate the thoughts I think sometimes.im only 24& have a good amount of gray in my hair.always worrying,always emotional and upset for sometimes I think no reasons at all.am I losing it

You need to quit beating yourself up and find yourself worth. It is there you just need to look for it. Often when we have hardships it is to find the silver lining, Maybe look for a support group or organization for mothers with autistic children, You are good enough you just need some support.

You need to join a support group of mothers of autistic children. That will give you ideas and information and new friends. It will also get you out of the house and away from loneliness.

Read my other response to you regarding your son.