I finally managed to do it
Hi..
I'm 16 and now a non-smoker. I started smoking when I was 14.. towards the end of 2006.
Now I know I've made the right decision but I could really use some input from an external point of view.
At first my parents were extremely outraged when they suspected me of smoking. My mother would daily search me and my room for cigarettes and my dad would beat me when he found out I had smoked.
I started smoking because of peer pressure, but then I really got addicted. Later on I actually made myself believe that smoking is cool. I smoked with "style". My dad gave me my first zippo lighter when I turned 15 and I loved it. It kind of pressured me to smoke more because it felt cool using it.
Since then I've received 3 more zippos which I adore. Moreover 2 months ago my dad gave me a cigarette case he had kept for over 30 years. Solid silver and he even got it engraved for me.
In the end.. almost a year ago my parents finally gave in and let me smoke. I decided to give up 11 days ago because I just had enough.
Everyone in my grade/year used to make fun of me, calling me an "alcoholic" and then casting me out because my smoke stank.
They followed up both those habits only months after me and now it seems the tables have turned and I'm one of the few who doesn't smoke.
I know it's extremely childish thinking that I looked cool with my cigarette case and zippo. But now I feel like a part of me is missing.
I haven't smoked for 11 days - on the inside I'm proud of myself. My mother is very happy with me, but I don't think my dad even noticed yet lol.
I've realised that smoking is just so not worth it in the long run.
I am correct, right?
-Xm8