I have been married for 14 years with 2 boys below the age of 10. My husband has been supecting me since the beginning. He used to physically abuse until last year. I had left him for a year but came back again. I have done this many times in the past. Since I came back this time, he has not hit me, but has again stated suspecting me. He thinks I am sleeping with other men, he never specifies anyone. Over the years, I have lost respect for him. At time I feel I hate him, but at times I feel I still love him. When I am angry with him, I feel I can live without him. But when I am away, I miss him. I have lost my libido, and hence am not interested in sex anymore. This makes him more annoyed. But, when he accuses me, I feel very humiliated and let down. He had promised to see a doctor, but keeps making excuses about going. What should I do? Why does he suspect me? Will he ever stop? It is making my life miserable.

no. he's never going to stop. And you keep letting this go on because you keep coming back. Ever heard the saying, fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me? You have to see his pattern. I'm sure it's only a matter of time until the physical abuse starts again. And you don't deserve that, no one does. This will never end until you decide to end it. Most likely by you leaving-for good! By the way, your little boys are probably learning to be just like him and will most likely repeat the cycle of violence and abuse unless you do something to intervene. Most children learn by example.

Unless he is willing to break the cycle of abuse and get the professional counseling he needs your only choice is to leave and never look back. Abuse of any sort in never acceptable in any relationship. NEVER!
Get out NOW with your children while you are still alive to do it.