Bi guy falling for Staright but possible bi friend.
After reading some old posts from other users, hoping I could get some answers. I decided to just sign up and ask and put out my somewhat weird position.
P.S I'm sorry in advance as my typing is crude, and usually porrly formed sentences.
I'm 18, turning 19 next month. I'm most likely bi, or bi-curious. Now I'v done things with other guys in the past and thought nothing about it until I reached around 13. Since then I kept my feelings about guys inside and just dated girls with some exceptions of doing something with a random guy. Now I haven even gone al the way with a guy as I'm scared to do such things yet, but I'v gone all the way with girls. I have always enjoyed "experimenting" with guys. To me it always seems so much more passionate and caring.
But as of last year near graduating from high school I told a select amount of friends that I think or am bi. My friends being always supportive about each other accepted that and actually thought it was awesome.
Thing is that most of my friends still don't know about it. And now I'm beginning to fall for a very good close friend. Whom I believe is straight. Its hard to be sure about it as a lot of my guy friends are very comfortable about there sexuality and we all do "gay" things with each other as jokes and what not.
Lately I'v noticed that he has started to want to hang out with me. I mean we usually hang out as a group every weekend for the last... 4 years. We are very good friends but don't really hang out with each other, other than our nice little hang out sessions with others since we live on different sides of the city. A lot of the time when were in the same room we would play footsies under a table, or he would joking feel me up, and joke about stuff like that. That stopped after he started dating his girlfriend, I mean every now and then he would do his little flirts. But now he started it up all over again, and more then usual I guess. He hasn't said much about the status of his girlfriend, and I usually never ask people about there relationships as I think its weird and rude or something. ( Its all probabl in my head). He seems to want to hook up and go out and do something.
Again a lot of my friends don't know I'm bi. The reason I am only half out is because if I told my friends that I was I know they would accept it... But I feel a big drift would create and Things would never be the same again. I mean I could just be to scared about coming out completely. Im planning on telling my mom about it. As my family wouldn't mind too much, in fact they would love to encourage it most likely.
But Lately I have been thinking about how I feel about him. Hes a nice guy, and very cute. He makes me laugh when needed and defends me when I seem to fall in an argument.
I would just like to hear other peoples thoughts on this. Thankies ^^