Admiring Someone From Afar
I am in a seven-year relationship. My boyfriend has a friend who is an excellent guitar player. I find him attractive and can't help looking at him and talking to him. My boyfriend doesn't feel threatened by this person for the reason that this person is not as well-endowed as he is (my boyfriend has a hangup about this and he knows about his equipment because he grew up with the guy). I know this is laughable reasoning on my boyfriend's part, but there is something about his friend that I find appealing apart from the physical. I think it is because I like musicians. I feel that he knows that I am admiring him and I think it makes him uncomfortable so I have been distancing myself. I think I am doing this because my boyfriend has done some pretty bad things to me in the course of our relationship which I have overlooked.
How do I stop myself from having these feelings or are they normal? I don't think this guy thinks of me the same way anyway and that is okay. Let me know what you think.
Amy