When things with my boyfriend seem to be at there worst and it appears that were through I really feel like I just would rather die than be with out him.it has came to where I think of different ways to die.I don't think I would ever really do it but it scares me that I even cosider it.is this a sign I need help.

It sounds like you do need help in bolsterring your sense of self worth. You should never tie your happiness to the actions of another. You must love yourself for who you are knowing that you are a worthy and valuable person all to yourself.

Check out these books
FEELING GOOD THE NEW MOOD THERAPY
By David Burns And
FEELING BETTER, GETTING BETTER, STAYING BETTER
By Albert Ellis

And of course, if you ever do feel like ending you life call a cricis line immediately and if you are depressed for over two weeks seak professional help.

Best wishes,
Dwalex

That's not a good way to think, it sounds as if you are insecure, every couple have ups and downs but you shouldn't have those thoughts, have you considered going to the doctors you maybe depressed? You need to get to know yourself, and you'll realise that
you can be happy by yourself in or out of a relationship x x