How do interpret fantasizing about males?
Hi, I'm 27 yo guy. My posting will take you some time but please be patient to read it and give me some advice as I really need it.
I'd like to ask whether I'm be as I from time to time fantasize about naked guys and women and their respective sexual organs.
It seems I have a fetish of men in underwear and leather, though I don't like to be sexually involved with them. Well, last year, just once I had oral sex with a guy older than me, but I didn't like it at all and felt disgusted about myself (while he himself enjoyed it a lot.
With girls, it hasn't been so smooth either. Something would happen and we would break up without ever leading to the sexual act, though I was very much in love with them.
With males, I think it's more an attraction to their outer form or when watching gay porn. I mean it's more external. In any case, it would be just sex. Whereas with women it takes me more time as it is love. I mean I want something lasting and serious.
I also watch heterosexual porn, and the arousal is the same in both cases. But the fantasies about males - females also-keep returning to my mind. Is it normal at all?
Am I pushing my mind in the wrong way by watching porn? What about the fetish of males? Should I experiment with men just for sometime to see how things will be? I'm not in a relationship right now.
Thank you.