I feel so down. My mother died 2 years ago at the young age of 56, we were so close. Soon after my aunt died and my grandmother all in the same year.This same year I had a miscarriage. Things started to look better then a 11 year old boy burned down my house in the middle of the night. He was a neighbor. The police could not do anything because of lack of evidence everything but our lives were lost we have 7 children 6 girls and one boy. We had no insurance. The house was paid for. We had to move in with my brother and his wife and their two children in a 3 bedroom house wich at one time was my moms. Someone called children and families because so many people lived in one house my brother opted to move so the children were not taken. So he and his family now live somewhere else I owe him everything but feel bad that he gave his home to us . The home is in very bad shape there are holes in the walls the wires are bad. Me and my husband work very hard . We use to own a lawning mowing but when the house went up so did are buss. I know work for my other brother he takes advantage knowing that I can't go no were else because we need to work everyday to support are family. He pays me only 8.50 and my husband 7.50 and hour new people make way more than we do with no exp. Making counter tops. Then he added insult to me by knowing we had to tear down the house because fines were staking up and the county would take it we would go out every weekend a 65 mile or more drive to tear it down with our bare hands. He instead of offering help said here is 1,500 for the property,you can't afford to tear it down I had no choose at least the children can visit and see their old friends.I can't quite because any time off would throw me deeper in debt. I feel so hopeless. Everything is gone. Yes we have our lives that is great. But not much else. I feel that I am helpless and no one cares I can't hold my head high any more. The money is gone before I even get paid there will never be a nice home for us again. I don't have my mom to talk to anymore she would always tell me things would get better. My bother who moved to let us take over the mortgage here I feel I have displaced him and his family and my other brother whom I work for I feel all he cares about is himself. I have had no raise in year, now that he owns my property he gotten the house tour down and tells eveyone about his lake property. I feel hopeless and that I can't stop feeling sad I just want life to be a little nicer for us I want to see the children laugh again. I promised them that when the house burned we would build a better house I lied. I failed then as a mother then I promised we would fix this house I can't even get school clothes ! I keep trying. And trying to get ahead. Why do I have like I am going crazy. That I will never be happy again. Thank you for reading this I have no one else to talk to take care