My mother and I: Bad Relationship
I try so hard to make her happy, but nothing seems to work.
Today my sister and I cleaned the entire house, and she came home and yelled at me for not finding the remote that my other sister lost yesterday.
It is wearing on my patience, and we have a cycle where every month or two we get into a huge fight and it sometimes escalates to physical violence(on both parts).
Every time we argue she convinces me that I am some horrible person, and that I will fail at life. I can't talk to her about this or she tells me to stop feeling sorry for myself, and that people are suffering all around the world. I understand that, and I know that my life isn't horrible, but its not good enough for me. I am sick of feeling like a failure to her, and she makes decisions that are wrong and does things that she shouldn't do. I admit that I can be disrespectful, but over the past two years I have lost respect for her from some of the things I have witnessed and been a part of.
How do I deal with this and still keep my sanity?
Sincerely,
K