Gift of Discernment? Seeing the future? Speaking in Tounges?
Okay I am really confused and I hope you don't think I am crazy so first off I am going to give my bio really quickly. I was raised in the Church and I believe in God, but I had issues with the actual church and the way the Bible is altered left and right ( I used to work in a Christian book store ). I was seven years in the making. My mom was unable to have children and after 7 years of pray I was conceived. I am not straight either I do not know what you may think about that, but I know God loves me for me and I am not perfect and no one is. When I 5 or 6 I used to watch the 700 club and spoke in tongues a lot. My parents encouraged it since the church they went to was very much into it. When I was about 11 I spoke in tongues again this time in front of the whole Church over a girl about my age. There was a visiting Pastor named Nevers Mumba from Africa. He told me at that time I had a huge gift and gave me a book to read about it. What I tried to tell him was that I was actually seeing the future and experiencing very weird things. He told me it was all part of the gift God gave me. I ve seen demons and spirits I guess. I ve even physically struggled with one on a single occasion. From time to time when I am in bed I feel as if something has gotten into bed with me. I was told that was just the presence of God with me and that comforted me, but since I have lived on my own multiple people have seen a presence around me, and I am feeling things around total strangers like I know something about them bad or good. I also know things before they happen. IE getting a job, where I will live, where an event will happen. Its really starting to frighten me. Is what I have all a hype from the Church? I would like to know I have been sleepless for a few nights now. I do not want to tell anyone since I am afraid they will think I am looking for attention or that I am nuts. I can't go to the church since I am gay , and the other side makes me feel uncomfortable. Anyone else feel like this or experience similar things?:confused: