I know the whole thing is wrong
Hi Im new so please take it easy on me once I give my problem OK. Here goes I have read plenty and I know there are haters out there but until you're here don't throw stones just give honest advice OK. I am involved with a married man have been very involved for the past 17 months, we have become very good friends to the point where I think we trust each other with almost everything. I care about him very deeply and know that it will go no where I know Im wasting my time and emotions on this guy but truly we have become friends and I know when this ends the friendship will too. Because we all know that having a physical relationship with someone is very involed esp if its been 17 months you can't be just friends maybe in time but not right away so I know I have to go cold turkey very hard to do. He does things to get me mad and I do things to get him mad sometimes we won't talk for a day or two. Right now we are on that cycle. I haven't heard from him since yesturday morning and I know he will call or tx because it wasn't that kind of a fight. I am almost looking at this as a way out its been 2 days since I talked w him and that's a long time for us I want to find the strength to not talk for a long time because I think it is the right thing. See I was married and cheated on I know the hurt she will feel and Its so wrong for me to be w hers, I know there marriage isn't that bad because he tells me its not it lacks passion and companionship and sex. I give him all that.He gives me attention and self esteem. Our sex is great. The best I have ever had in my life all this aside I get it I need to leave just don't know how. Because when I do his life will go back to the way it was and mine will be upside down. Why would I want to put myself thur that pain... been there so many times I guess I am just looking for someone to say they understand what's happening here maybe not agree but give some kind words of encouragement to get thur this so I can do what is right for him ame and his family. How ever understand this if it wasn't me he would have found someone else because he has problems in himself.So please don't call me a home wrecker because no home has been wrecked here nobody knows but him and I. thanks for listening