I need help. I love two men. I love my husband even though he is so bad for me. He drinks too much, has trouble with overdosing on over the counter meds, and being verbally abusive. He went to Iraq and I allowed myself to become close friends with another man. He is perfect for me, wonderful with my kids, hard worker, good provider, and he wants me. My husband says he is changing and wants our relationship to work. I love them both. What can I do to help me make a decision one way or another before I lose them both?