Hello my name is Antonio I been dateing this woman I love very much for 4years now I am 24 years old and she is 39 years old we been together 4years and half now and she has 4 kids.. and we have 1 kid of are own I am not sure what to do anymore I been loseing my mind constatly I love her with all of my heart but I don't no how much my heart can take anymore I been really getting depressed and stuff and I want us to move and get are new house start a new life away from are past house but she not ready to live with me? 4years half and we have a kid and I ask her to marry me she said yes but I am also american citzen she is irish citzen and we got into an argument and she got me aressted form entering ireland after I went to america to visit family then she cried to me on phone so sorry wants me back there and misses me we can't stand to be away form each other longer then few hours and we fight now and then about little stupid things that drives me crazzy I need some advice and help

What a dilemma, but I think you must accept that she isn't on the same page you are, and back off from any pressure for your future of living together.

Your are tied to this female for years to come, so focus on being a good dad, and leave the rest alone.

I agree with talaniman, the babies the first priority.
Maybe just take time to think about what you want.