I've only been in love once, and I never told the girl, so she dumped me for her ex, who shed been cheating on me with, so I told myself to never love anyone again... then I met her, damn, every time I'm with her, every time I touch her lips, or hand, or anything, I feel like I'm flying, she's my world, I dream of her, I close my eyes, she's there, I desire her warmth, but, I've been keeping myself from loving anyone for so long, and I'm scared, I'm scared that I can't tell her how I feel, I'm scared its going to happin again, I'm scared that what I feel twordes her isn't love, but lust, I told myself that love isn't real, I've had suicidal thoughts, I've done s##tty things too other girls, like cheating, before this girl, and if I mess up, I may just jump, she's my lifeline, she's the only thing that seems to make me happy anymore, and I can't lose that, is this "love" or is it a device I'm using to keep those thoughts of jumping down, please, please help
