My fiancé died, and I haven't been a nurse since
When my fiance' passed away July 27, 2005. I quit being a nurse. He died of Hepatitis C--it was a long drawn out death, very painful, and taxing. He was a strong man when we first got together and when he died he was emaciated and weak.
When I was a nurse I could handle anything, but since seeing him die in that hospital bed in so much pain, spitting up blood, gasping for his breath, and hearing him drown in his own fluid in his chest. I haven't been able to do it, anymore.
I have let me nursing license lapse--I had to attentions on going back. I don't know how to go back even if I wanted to. Do I have to start all over again.
How will I deal with death and dying again, no matter which type of nursing you are in--you are going to see it. I can't hide forever, and I was a damn good nurse. What should I do.
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