Before I was born my dad had always done drugs. Hes always been addicted to meth. Well when he met my mom, my mom want to "fit in" with my dad and his friends. Well that's why my mom is psycho because she did 2 8 balls in less than one hour. Im surpise she didn't die. I remember I use to live with my dad and my mom and my brothers and my dads friends and we all had to wear shoes cause there would be dirty needles all over and meth all over. By the time I turned 12 I had to learn how to sell meth and make it cause I was forced to by my parents. Well I did. When I was 13 my dad was a truck driver and my mom never worked. My dad never cared about anything but his drugs. We lived in a shack with no running water no electric. My mom pimped me out so we could eat and she was tired of me going to juevy for stealing food cause I hadn't aten in days or even weeks. My ? Is:

Is it my fault that I did what my mom wanted me to?
Am I the one to be blamed?
What am I going to do now, I mean I can't ever stop thinking that it is my fault.

Wow, I don't know what to say to this, but somebody needs to read this, and you need to get help from someone. That is horrible!!

After the first try of meth, you can get addicted. This is NOT your fault.
Your parents made the wrong choice and you are suffering for it...
You should talk to the police see if they can get help for your parents.. but they might take you away and a lot of things can happen... im sorry I don't know what to do much. Try your best.. do good in SCHOOL!

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Is it my fault that I did what my mom wanted me to?
Am I the one to be blamed?
What am I going to do now, I mean I can't ever stop thinking that it is my fault.

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1 - It is not your fault in any way or shape.

2- You are not the one to blame for any of this.

3- You need to seek help and advise, maybe you could try talking to a school counciler or an adult you can trust. Some of the things that you have said that you have been forced to do are illegal and no child should have to suffer the way you have.

I know it is hard to not blame yourself because you are stuck in a rut, but it really is not your fault. You did not make your parents take drugs before you where born and I'm sure you would rather them be clean of them.

Please seek help and advise, from social care or within your local church or counciler service.

Not sure what country you are from but have added this link in case it helps.

Addictions Email Advice by Addiction Advisor

So your parents are screwed up and you had a tough life, a lot of people do, the question is what are you doing with your life now,
What changes are you going to make in your own life to improve it?

Fr_Chuck has a good point there.

History does not have to repeat itself. Your life doesn't have to lead down the same path of destruction that your parents chose. You are not them, and you are smart enough and resourceful enough to secure your own, different, life.

It isn't easy to change your life, to go in a different direction or path than what you are on now. To do so is entering the unknown, and learning how to live the life you want to live. To be independent, happy, self-sufficient, confident. To set goals, work hard, suffer setbacks and work through them. Anybody can say you can turn your life around, but not many realize just how hard that is.

Life is not a cake-walk. When you decide to take the next step from thinking about changing your life, to actually taking the steps, you will build upon all the successes you will have along the way. It won't happen overnight, and it will be difficult.

Seek out clinics, counselling, job training, any and all resources that will provide the tools you need to build your life. There are so many resources out there that will bend over backwards to help a motivated person.

I truly wish you success, you can do this.