Cheated when he was my boyfriend & now we're engaged & he found out?
My guy and I lived in the same city at the start of our relationship. Things were great! Then a few months in I had to move to other city that was 4 hours away from him. He got me a cell so we could keep intouch and came down to see me as often as he could. About 3 years in I moved out of my parents house. Got depressed and began drinking that lead me to hanging out with a bad crowd. That's when I cheated. It was only once and I hated the fact that I did it. He always knows when something isn't right with me. He asked me about it and I lied about cheating and felt even more horrible. I was becoming someone who I'm not. About 2 years ago I moved back to be with him. We got engaged last December then got our own apartment. Everything we wanted dreamed for planned was coming along. I had never felt so close to him and couldn't believe everything was going on. Then this month him and I sat down for a talk about something he did. That's when I told him. It slipped out. And before I could do/say anything it was all out. Last Sunday we called off the engagement. This has been so hard for me. The beginning of the month I was so stressed out that I couldn't eat, sleep. All I thought about was how could I have done that to someone I love so much. I've cried myself to sleep every night due to the uncertainty that lies ahead. Our lease is up in March and I want to better our relationship. I just don't know how. I want him to know how much I truly love him and care about him. I look at our pictures on the wall and cry because he thinks they're all a lie. The fact is that after I cheated I vowed to myself to never do it again. I want him as my husband and the father of my children.