My son blames me for his fathers death 4 years ago my husband killed himself under a train I was not with him at the time he was with another women we had split up 2 years before. He had a drink problem and was very volant towards me so I kicked him out of house. He never kept up contact with my boys came when he felt like it. But my son has his father on this pedestal and says its all my fault he tells me he hates me all the time he's 15 and just keeps disrespecting me my other son 13 is totally different is this just teenager hell or does he really hate me? All I wanted was to protect my boys and myself but when he never turned up for contact I was to blame.

He is still very young, just a kid.
He probably can't accept that his father died, esp killed himself.
Sometimes when people lose loved ones, they seek for people to blame.

When my daddy passed away I blamed God for this. I didn't believe there was a god, I used to always ask why? Why my daddy?

Your son needs to learn how to deal with grief and acceptance that his father has died which seems like he can't do it alone.

It would probably be wise to seek a physcologist for him, someone he doesn't know and that he can freely talk to and also to let his anger out on someone else, someone professional in this matter, not you, his mum.

Good luck.