How to live life without my fiancé
Its been two months since she had left. Two months before her twentieth birthday which was yesterday. We had so much planned and talked about are future with kids and our own place. Its still hard to believe she is gone and I never want to go to bed or even wake up. The worst part is I was away for army training. I still remember that day and it seemed so normal. Until I was called into my first sergeants office and he told me to call my mother. I called her thinking of course something bad happened and my fiancé was the first person I thought about and I prayed that she was OK. Things haven't turned out like I quite planned. People decide its fun to go drunk driving in the pouring rain with inoperatable headlights. The man hit her and it was instant. She suffered none but I suffer in pain for her. Ive been getting help but its just not the same when the person your getting help from doesn't understand because they have never been in the same situation. I need to talk to someone that understands and has been through this before. I don't know what to do anymore and I'm losing hope