Hello. So I've been reading my posts from when I was getting over my first girlfriend, and I realized that the posts that I have been writing about my second girlfriend (whom I am getting over now) are almost completely identical. I rushed into a relationship right after I got out of one... and I find myself at square 1! I am literally laughing right now because its so clear to me what I did wrong. I never even stopped to see it coming, it was all just a feeling of something being not right constantly. It has now been roughly 2 years(!! ), since those first posts and I really haven't learned a whole lot about relationships. The only thing I did right this time, was end it and end it for good. I am also dealing with a worse situation then I possibly ever could've dealt with (who would've guessed). Oh well, I take it as my punishment for foolishly carrying on in a relationship that wasn't right and bringing her to my college with me. I am more than ready now to learn from everything that I have said and done. It is obvious to me that the problem has always been my inability to truly be happy with myself. Im not sure exactly what it is. I work out, I'm part of a fraternity (which I somewhat dislike), I get attention from females, etc. However, there is something just missing deep inside me that causes me to feel a need for a girl or being with close friends constantly. I don't want another failed relationship. I want to love myself as much as I do my future wife. I believe I am mature in some ways, but honestly, very immature in others and I wonder if that has something to do with it. This past relationship is still bothering me, and I assume it will for another month or so. However, in the meantime I really want to figure out how to make myself happier on the inside I want to stop reacting on every feeling I get, I want there to be more to me than excessive thought and ex girlfriends. Can anyone give me advice on how to improve my relationship with myself? Tips on how to feel happier... anything? I would really appreciate it. Thanks!

Hay dude I can tell you just need to chill! ;)

You sound so fired up and hyper.. like you are ready to explode.. seriously.. that's the vibe I get from you .

And you are one of those unique young men who actually Thinks about a relationship. Yeah!!

wow:) Good for you or maybe not because you are not too happy right now.

I didn't really see any question here but I can tell you this .you have a wonderful writing skill and you express yourself beautifully

Oh tips on how to be happier.. my bad.. I abhor that expression.don't know why I used it.(my bad I mean)

I suggest you write ,there are many on line writing *things* and clearly you have a talent.

You truly do have a way with words.. I'm buzzed tonight so I'm being jerky but I was pulled in by what you had say and the way you expressed yourself.. I read a lot of things from a lot of people but you drew me in because you have a way with words so.. you asked what to do and I say write as you clearly have a talent for it weather you know it or not.
I hope you know it.. its a gift :rolleyes:

Many blessings to you... pick up that pen!

A private journal is a good idea, and making a plan to rebuild your life with activities, and people that you enjoy, without the drama, of course.

Honestly it sounds to me like a little relaxation for you would go a long way. Writing is a good idea. Take some quiet time for you, whenever you have time. Or better yet, make time. And don't forget your friends. Although, quiet time and relaxation are good for you, so is going out and having fun so you're not dwelling on anything.

Writing is good and excelling what you are going to school for.
Enjoy life and do things that make you happy like sports, hobbies and interests.